Sender: Clasmate
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Received: 11:40:38 pm, 17-04-09
“Clasmate d n k nag pa alam s u ,
daanan k pa anak k kulit kc. Congratulations!”

I was so happy when I saw you, did you know that?

I was flying when you talked to me, did you notice that?

I was shaking when I touched you, did you feel that?

Maybe not, because I’m not special to you, I am just an acquaintance, your friend’s daughter. I am the only one who believes in the illusion that we could be together someday, and be happy even if you’re married and even if I’m way younger than you are. I fell in love with you almost two years ago, I fell in love with you even though I know you are married. And that’s my fault, I can’t blame you for hurting my feelings because you don’t even know that I am in love with you and I can’t also blame you for being so beautiful.


Sometimes I think that I’m crazy. I am highly imaginative, I sometimes imagine that we are walking in a mall or in a beach, sometimes I imagine us laughing and spending time with each other in our secret love nest. I am highly imaginative because I am a writer, and I hate that at this point.


During the party, I was staring at you, watching your every move, and I told myself that you are really beautiful and that your husband is so lucky to have you as his wife. And then suddenly, you took your phone from your bag and you started texting, then you checked the time and you texted again. I was in tears at that time.


“Putang ina sana ako na lang ang asawa mo” I told myself

“Sana ako ang katext mo ngayon at ako rin sana ang naghihintay sayo sa bahay.”

I am not your special someone and I will never be. I am not the father of your children. I am not the person who sleeps beside at you at night and stare at you while you’re sleeping. I am not the one who shares household expenses with you. I am not the one who listens to you and hug you when you cry. I’m not him.

Is there a possibility that you’d fall for me? The answer is no and that’s the bitter reality of life. You are 33 years older than me and you are married. You are almost done with your life and I’m just starting mine. You are already a mother and I’m not yet a lady.

Maybe in my next life, sana pwede na tayo...